The Process of Pregnancy Loss

Most people think of miscarriage as an event.  It is more of a process.

Today I am in the medical bill portion of the process.

It wasn’t technically a miscarriage this time.  (This was my third pregnancy loss.)  It was an ectopic pregnancy.  It was medically terminated in the emergency room by an injection of methotrexate.  That stuff is nasty, but that’s another story.

Eight weeks of hope, terminated.

Now the bills are coming in.  Emergency room visits are not cheap!  And we had two of them in one weekend.

It breaks my heart to have to pay these.  So much money, and nothing to show for it.

As I pulled up my hospital’s bill payment website, I noticed a new post came through on Facebook.  I clicked over to see what it was.  My friend had just posted pictures of her new baby, born today.  I wanted to be happy for her, and I am, but it was a painful juxtaposition.  My first baby would be due next week.

Yes, miscarriage is a process.

Photo Credit:  Wesley Wilson, https://www.pexels.com/u/wealthformyhealth/